ll Think Twice ll

Here's a first entry from Sapphire, This entry is 

based on someone and she would

like to share about it and hope you fellow readers

will think twice, hence the title.....

Have you ever thought about losing your virginity?

How would it feel and if it's with the right person?

Of course losing it is a big deal, if some of you out

there think it's just nothing then there's

definitely some thing wrong with you.

Did you know that when you get married (for girls

of course),some family will put 

on a white bed sheet

just to make sure that the girl is truly

still a virgin? If you'll lost

your virginity a long time ago

say during your teens years, 

and even if your husband knows

about it, what about his family? 

Are you gonna cut yourself and spread blood

all over the bed? I'm sure

your not willing to do so...

So here's the real story that I'm about to share.

(P.S, I'm trying to write from her point of view)

I never did understand how people could

lose it so easily without feeling

guilty, sad and such about it.

I mean what happen if you did it

with the wrong person? If he

was your husband then it's okay cause

one, people won't talk about it like

your some kind of slut sleeping

around with guys and there's

a legal tie between them. I remember doing it

the first time. It was with my then boyfriend,

it was both the first time for us.

I was really afraid at first cause I knew

what will happen if I lose it and such but

then once we did it, he told me he haven't

pop my cherry. So I was still save but let

me tell you, it hurt even if it wasn't pop.

Let's just say we did it a few times and no it was

not pop by him. Things ended between us

for certain reasons but he still love me

and thinks I'm his girlfriend when in

reality, there's nothing between us anymore

and even though I still love him, I love my

current boyfriend more than him.

Truth be told, my current boyfriend is

my ex boyfriend that I used to date

a few years back but I guess

after all this year I still love him.

When we first got back together, 

we did it and of course it didn't pop

yet. Things got a little overboard when

he told me that maybe my

cherry had pop without my notice.

I was by then had shed a tear that turn into

a crying fit, he ask me if the there was any blood

the first time I did it and I said yes. Thus, he

confirm it saying that it was pop if

I bleed. I was by then couldn't think

straight cause during that stage, everything was

falling apart for me and I felt like

killing myself just so I can

stop the pain and end it swiftly.

My boyfriend then said just think that I

was the one who did it instead of my ex.

By then I really wish he was the one cause

I was afraid if it went out to others

and people would of think of me

differently. No one knows of this,

even my ex. Only my boyfriend and I

are the only one who knows about it. So we,

as in my boyfriend and I met up one afternoon.

We talked about it and one thing

led to another, things got hot and

we end up in the bedroom.

And we discovered that, my cherry wasn't

pop yet but by then it was by him. We

were shock to see so much blood

on the bed sheet that we kinda freaked

out cause again it was so new for us.

I went and wash up and realize that I was

actually given a second chance by god to repent but

I did it again and now every thing's too late.

With regret lingering my head and heart, I went

and help my boyfriend to wash the blood.

After the blood was thoroughly washed,

we talk about it and we're both

we afraid except that I look as if nothing

was happening. We talk it out

for a while but didn't continue discussing

about it till later that night through the phone.

And we came to the conclusion maybe

it was a bit pop and I was still

a virgin. How I hope to god

he was right just to give my mind and

heart at ease. But till today,

I'm still regretting but I'm

somehow glad it wasn't with someone

I barely knew. For it give's me

somehow a little peace even if it's just 

a little, it's still a lot for me.

Moral of the story is, please ladies, never

just give your virginity up just like that and

if your given a second chance, never misuse it

like she did . She had since regret and is living in

fear of people knowing the truth, if people we're

to know of it, she would kill herself or even run away

but she's more afraid of her family's will be ruin

because of her. From my perspective, she's a

very smart girl and had a bright future but because of her

mistake, I'm not so sure, please take this story as

a lesson for us all. Please don't judge this poor girl,

she's really at the brink of insanity.

Let's all pray that the girl will get through it

together and will repent for her

mistakes.